So this last week I have been in the throes of pain. It feels so crippling. Cannot sit, cannot stand, cannot sleep comfortably, cannot bend, cannot walk. Its like a small part of my back can make life absolutely unbearable. Blood tests determined that I have vitamin B12 and D deficiency. My doctor also said be ready for x-rays, ortho visits because it could very well be something more sinister. My future work and travel plans feel so threatened right now. One whole week, I haven't touched clay and I can already feel my ideas slipping away, my chance at making my art.
But, I got a lot of time on my hands, which is a good thing. I was thinking up of challenges for the next few weeks for other clay artists. I sat and drew literally 5 minute drawings of what I can try to make. Squeezing in 5 minute stretches to strengthen my back while trying to find 15 minutes of sun for my vit D :). Reading self motivation articles and looking at ideas online.
But, I got a lot of time on my hands, which is a good thing. I was thinking up of challenges for the next few weeks for other clay artists. I sat and drew literally 5 minute drawings of what I can try to make. Squeezing in 5 minute stretches to strengthen my back while trying to find 15 minutes of sun for my vit D :). Reading self motivation articles and looking at ideas online.
With pain brought a realization that my body reacts to everything. The food we eat, the sun light we expose ourselves to, the exercises we do, the laughter we induce. My mind takes swipes at me sometimes, trying to rear ugly pictures of what I might have to give up, quickly followed by depressing thoughts, which I crawl out of, not alone, never by myself. I have found my anchors who help me rise up out of these dark thoughts. I have learnt to understand though, that I will do whatever it takes to stay happy and content, but that does not mean I don't have weaknesses or sadness. I give in to them occasionally with the hope that I will rise out of them a changed person. Only time will tell if I have grown stronger or weaker.
P.S : Since then my back issues have reduced tremendously firstly due to my doctor's advice to bring my VIT levels up. Secondly to a year of Yoga that has not only made me stronger, more flexible but also thankful to my instructor for being a constant source of inspiration. I want to continue yoga, when time permits. I only wish that don't become lazy again, due to this prolonged break from it. It's the year 2020 , where COVID 19 has wreaked havoc worldwide.
<3 Rich